I texted him lastnight and he said he was still doing his work.  I asked him to call me when he’s done, but he said he’s not sure when he’ll finish so I just said goodnight.  I couldn’t sleep so I went through my old emails on my phone.  I don’t have a lot of the older ones, because I deleted it this one time we had a fight.  Luckily, he emailed me a picture of himself, replying to my first email to him.  He still has all our emails and chat archives upto this day.

In about a week, it will be our 2 yrs anniversary.  We’ve decided our anniversary is the day we started talking.  We were pretty much “engaged” since the first night we talked so we went along with it.  In a nutshell, when we were chatting, everything started as a joke and the joke became real.  We’ve still never met, maybe one day we will :p

So ya, I was reading through it and I’ve decided to post some of my favourite mushy content from him.  I don’t get any of these anymore.  We’re just always goofing around with our texts.  Once in a blue moon, he’ll say something like, “guess what”…. “I love you.”  or, every now and then, he still says, “I love you princess”…that’s my fave!  I love it when he says I’m his princess.  I know, weird, but ya.

2/21/10

I ate brunch at red lobster but I only got the soup because of my throat. I’m at the mall walking around, I wish you were here with me, we could hold hands. I would take you to the lingerie place so you can model for me and maybe do a little something something in the fitting rooms lol. I’m thinking of always baby, muah muah muah

2/22/10

Hey mamacita, I’m on my way to work, I kind of feel better today thanks to you, I always feel good when I wake up knowing that you are in my life. You’re so good to me baby, I never want to lose you. I hope you have a great day, think about me ok, cuz I’m gonna he thinking about you all day

3/16/10

good morning sunshine… how’s my sleeping beauty… oh wait i forgot, i’m not supposed to talk to you early morning, i’ll just kiss you and squeeze you tight to let you know that i want to suffocate you and make you pop lol… you should go to the gym today so you fit into your wedding dress… i love you so much <insert my first name> <insert his last name>, you have no idea… make sure you don’t get caught up on chat with someone else unless you want them dead lol… j/k… i bet the FBI or CIA is reading my emails going… is this guy serious, i think he really will kill someone if his girl is cheating on him… lol… i should stop… love you princess… xoxo

I told him before that I don’t like talking in the morning.  I mean, I’ll listen, but Idon’t like verbally talking.  i like this email because this was the first time he put his last name with mine.  It was so cute!  he asked me if i was weirded out with it, I said I love it!  also, I love how he pretends to act all jealous…too cute!

4/16/10 

the truth is, whether you stop talking to me or not, i’m still gonna be trippin about you which is really affecting my work… the only time i can actually focus at work is when i know that you are happy, but when you’re not happy and i feel like you’re not gonna talk to me anymore, it really gets in my head and changes my character completely… if i stop talking to you then i might get fired for being edgy all the time, and if i keep talking to you then i will only be able to be my best when you’re happy but if you’re not then i’ll screw up… it’s always a lose lose for me

This was after one of our first few fights.  We fought a lot before, more so because he would sleep early on me and i would talk to other guys.  He’ll get jealous and get upset.  He used to always talk to me for long hours and end with, “are you going to sleep now?  are you going to talk to anyone else?”  We also used to fight because sometimes he won’t even call or message me to say goodnight.  I’m all up waiting for nothing.  Now though, I’ve gotten accustomed to it.  

Now, we don’t do any more of that, but I feel much, much closer and secure with him than ever.  It’s just one of those, I know at the end of the day or the next, he’s still mine.  As mentioned on my previous post, just having him talk to me at night alone, already shows a lot of dedication to me.  It’s hard being a full-time worker, student, and a son/brother.  He’s always taking his mom shopping, playing with his brother, having family time.  

Well anyways, that’s all for now.  It’s just nice to reminisce on the good ‘ol fun times.  Honey moon stage is definitely over, aha!  

I always used to ask him before, “What do you love about me?”  He wouldn’t have an answer.  He’ll keep saying, I love you for you.  I always thought that was lame, but in all honesty, now I think that’s what love really is.  If you say, I love her cuz she’s cute, she’s funny, she’s smart, this and that.  What if one day, I had an accident and got a messed-up face, couldn’t talk and couldn’t think?  Will he still love me then?  So ya, I think true love is loving them because it’s them.  You love them as a person, not because of how they make you feel based on what they do to you/for you.